there’s a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. Other people are merely mirrors of us. You cannot love or hate  something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself. It's horrifying how much you can hate yourself for being weak and in need of someone who can’t save you from feeling that. Eventually you’ll turn it on her; you’ll try to empty it onto her. But there is always more.  When she tries to help; you’ll try tell her that she made you feel that. and that it’s her fault. But nobody makes us feel that, we do that for ourselves. you’ll shut her out because you know if she ever really saw who you are inside, that she won't love you anymore. and it’s so hard to make her understand. Actually I failed making her understand. And I don't know if I'm going to get a second chance, but I have to believe. That I deserve one. Because we all do.

Their are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work." Learning lessons does not end. There's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. If you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned. What you make of your life is up to you. What you do with it is up to you. The choice is yours. 

the answers that you’re seeking for,  lay within you. The answers to life's questions lay within you. All you need to do is to look, to listen, and to trust. you hold the answers deep within your own mind, and consciously you’re forgetting it, that’s the way the human mind works.

and you’re sure as I’m sure… You will forget all of this.